if you really knew me.

today i was channel surfing and came across a show called "if you really knew me" on mtv. i know most mtv shows are like trash tv but this one honestly spoke to me. it pretty much helping bring different cliques in high school to come together, to throw aside judgements, to really to get to know a person. i myself am in high school and could honestly say nobody really knows me. i get along with many people and make friends easy but my appearence at school isn't always me. i've been a cheerleader done the dance team and been in band, ive been the happy high school girl on the outside. so i've decided to get things out. IF YOU REALLY KNEW ME...

-you would know i have been diagnosed with major deppression

-you would know the terrible ugly scars on my thighs are from self injures behavior

-you would know my dad and i fought everyday til i left

-you would know i've been two a mental health facility twice now because of suicide

-you would i feel as though nobody will ever want to love me

-you would know i always think of others before myself

-you would know im trying to change and be a better person

-you would know i feel trapped because of my emotions